mercredi 1 décembre 2010

Watching

This is the time for contemplation. After my grandmother's death in July, my grandfather took a turn for the worst and called my mother up yesterday to tell her he was dying and had only a few weeks left.

I watch my mother cry on the phone, feeling helpless and bruised and lost.

I watch the world, a little slowly, retreating inside myself.

I'm still here, on the sidelines. I feel like asking for help, but I realize I can only help myself; that when my sister comes home for the holidays, the person who knows me best will be there, understand. No need to talk.

Snow everywhere.

I feel frozen.

4 commentaires:

  1. Sara, you and your family are in my thoughts. Sending a California-sized hug your way.

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  2. Sara, love you and miss you. I'm sending heaps of love over to you and your family. xxxxxxxxxxx

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  3. So sorry at the news. Sending you a love and hugs!
    ~Emmy

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